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Why Responsible Women Don’t Get Screwed August 16, 2009

With the disappointing news from Oprah, I need to relay on my shoes even more! Photo by Jean Thronton.

With the disappointing news from Oprah, I need to rely on my shoes even more! Photo by Jean Thronton.

Darn it, Oprah, you have done it again!  You have messed with one of the few joys left in my life!  First you take away your traditional “Favorite Things” show this year and instead claim that your “New Favorite Things” are actually crappy homemade gifts that are recession trendy.  Oh gee, thanks, Oprah!  Just what I wanted, a jar of cookie ingredients to add baking to my busy holiday schedule!  The shots of the increasingly more disappointed audience members (who by the end of the show were busy texting their friends about how much it sucked) should have been a tip-off to producers that this was bull.  Yeah, like I see Oprah – the epitome of the accomplished, confident, stylish American woman — handing Gail one these homemade gifts in place of the Cashmere lounge suit she got last year! 

So what more can Oprah do to destroy the hopes of women everywhere who no longer hold out for the chance of being showered with luxury items by a talk show host?  Well, Oprah has once again taken hoards of other women and me to an even lower level of lost hopes and dreams while increasing the amount of wine needed to survive our drab life.  Oprah had a scientist on the show (a female scientist) who was discussing the science of attraction; she revealed that when ovulating, women release a scent that attracts men.  She backed this up with the research that ovulating strippers receive higher tips than non-ovulating strippers.  Would have loved to see the assistant sign up sheet for that study.  With this backing she made the statement that caused me—and I am sure many other women—to be totally outraged: Women on birth control pills are less attractive because we do not produce these scents.

Yes, that’s right; this research essentially says that responsible women — who care enough to take a pill every morning instead of entering the societally burdensome state of single motherhood — are less attractive to men.  I cannot thank science enough for making me feel so awesome right now and giving me the choice between not protecting myself against an unwanted pregnancy or not attracting men – a Hobson’s choice that removes any possibility I might someday create a meaningful relationship with one of those men and then make the choice to have child.  That’s right world, responsible women are no longer attractive.  Toss aside the successful career women, the homeowners, the insurance payers, high credit scoring ladies of the world into one big bin and ship us all off to the convent because no man will ever be attracted to our pheromones until we knock off the pills.

Like so much in life, I cannot blame Oprah alone for this shocking realization that responsibility is not attractive to men, as Oprah herself is a responsible woman who has built not only a successful career and business empire but also broke tradition and wedding rings.  For generations females have been told to take the role of the lesser sex, even if we are equals with our male counterparts in so many ways.  We are encouraged to play down our strengths and play up our eyes and lips.  At times I buy the come hither glances and the “rescue me” sighs, especially when my towel rack breaks or I need help moving something heavy.  Hey, I am not an idiot—I don’t want to chip my nails! 

But I also know that at times I need to step up and take care of myself.  Could this be making me less attractive to men; do they really see providing for myself as a deterrent?

It just may be that having responsibilities has cut into my free time and lessened opportunities to put myself out there.  I have a mortgage, so yes I have to worry about keeping my career moving forward and paychecks coming in.  At times that means making my early morning meeting more important than a late night at the bar and maybe a tipsy hookup.  At home I have obligations that mean I need to dedicate time to caring for my investment and cleaning up after the two pets that look to me for their food and walks.  I don’t want to bring home a random person who could harm my furry housemates—or worse yet, my shoes!

Beyond that, I have been investing in my goals and the future I see past the coming weekend or next month.  While looking for ‘Mister Right’, I feel I need to prepare for a future that may or may not involve him.  Yet, by choosing to divert money from the spur-of-the-moment weekend event to my retirement fund, am I also diverting my chances of meeting a guy on that impromptu night out?  Let’s face it, we have to be out there to be seen; a tour bus full of eligible men looking for their dream girl has not pulled up to my condo for a round of speed dating. 

As much as I would like to blame Oprah and her scientist, my lack of ovulating pheromones, and no fabulous “Favorite Things” show for a dateless Saturday night, I cannot—that would not be responsible.  Ahh yes! Responsibility—it may be the ultimate roadblock to the carefree dating that we all believe leads to discovering our partner in life and maybe responsibility is an even bigger roadblock than the missing smell ovulating pheromones.  However, it is precisely responsibilities such as these that bring us the happiness and the pride that help make us the confident women we are, or can become.  In the end, I still think confidence rules the laws of attraction, despite having no stripper research, as yet, to back up this theory.

 

Learning From Our Shoe History August 9, 2009

These Betsy Johnson silver stunners are suited for a queen, a first lady, or even just an Island Shoe Girl. Photo by Jean Thornton.

These Betsy Johnson silver stunners are suited for a queen, a first lady, or even just an Island Shoe Girl. Photo by Jean Thornton.

If you like shoes, people will occasionally tease you about your passion.  If you love shoes like I do, people will try to warn you of the dangers of too many shoes.  Yes, I am well aware that walking, biking, and sometimes just standing can be a hazardous task.  Just look at the bruise on my left knee compliments of a wet floor meeting my stylish-but-slick Rampage stilettos. 

 One such cautionary tale that I hear frequently is that of the famous women who let their love of shoes lead to their downfall and not just a slip on a freshly mopped floor.  Two such historical figures I have been warned about are Marie Antoinette (also known as “Madame Deficit” by her not-so-loyal subjects) and the queen of shoe excess, Imelda Marcos.  With the cautionary words “those who do not learn from history are doomed to repeat it,” running through my head, I do what any good shoe girl detective does, put on my best investigating stilettos and surf the web!

The similarities of these famous, well-heeled ladies are more abundant than one might think despite the centuries separating their rise to fame and political leadership.  It can be argued that both women became political figures because of their husbands’ positions of power, whether inherited or elected.  While both women had a level of notoriety prior to their marriages, without their husbands their lives would have been much different.  Perhaps it was not so much the shoes they wore, but the men they stood beside in them. Tammy Wynette should have consulted with these girls before declaring, “stand by your man!”

Their public held both ladies as examples of grace, elegance, and trend-setting style—at least at first.  However, their public displays of glamour quickly fell out of fashion when their subjects were left with all of the bills but none of the lifestyle for themselves.  Imelda was ridiculed for creating charities that did little to serve those in need and hosting elaborate government ceremonies that appear to have celebrated little more than shameless excess.  In fairness to Marie, it could be argued that the royal family she married into was far more wasteful with money than she was; remember during this time France was involved in expensive wars that were very unpopular.  But wear amazing shoes and suddenly all the world’s blame falls at your feet!

About those famous feet, let’s acknowledge the designer elephant in the room.  Marie and Imelda loved shoes—who can blame them—surely not me or any other girl who has ever tried on handcrafted Italian leather soles!  Marie was rumored to have had 500 pairs and a servant to attend to them; I dare to dream of this day for myself. While Imelda is known for her exorbitant number of shoes, it is hard to find a confirmed number; reports range from 2,500 to 5,400 pairs, but Imelda insists it was only 1,060.  

I can understand that either lady had more than enough shoes. Yes, it can be reasonably argued that it would take years to wear 500 pairs of shoes even if you wore a different pair every day. I can easily have three changes a day and I am not a head of state so I cast no stones!  As much as I hate abuse of power and over spending, as a culture we expect a certain level of indulgence from our political leaders.  Look only at the number of Inaugural Balls held to celebrate the election of a president.  Immediately after the confetti and balloon drop, we begin to scrutinize every penny spent.  There is a fine line that must be walked, in platforms or pumps, between fulfilling all the expectations without exceeding even one by the slightest.  I believe we have to consider the complicated roles in which Marie and Imelda found themselves.

Both of our ladies of leisure had to flee their palaces and their shoes to save their lives.  While Imelda has been tried for various crimes, so far a conviction has yet to stick.  Of her shoes Imelda said to Time Magazine in 2006, “When they opened my closet they found shoes instead of skeletons” and those famous shoes have grown in legend and in reality with their own museum.  As to our young Queen of Excess, Marie’s fate was far worse; she faced the true wrath of French Revolution head on, and I don’t mean that figuratively.  Her shoes and the rest of her wardrobe were also victims of an angry mob that looted and spread her belongings across the countryside as symbols of the revolution.  The only surviving item was a shoe that Marie lost as she ran with her family in a last attempt to save the fairy tale life she had been promised.  Unlike Cinderella, that shoe never made its way back to the ill-fated Queen.  

Is the ultimate lesson that I should give up my shoe ambitions and live a life of flat-footed simplicity?  Before I pack up my shoe closet there is one more victim of the shoe who also had to flee a home: the Dalai Lama.   He was called a “very political old monk shuffling around in Gucci shoes” by Rupert Murdoch.  Allow a moment for the insanity of this comment; look only at the man’s feet once to know he is not wearing Gucci. 

Which I think is the lesson we might learn from all of this: no matter how you try to fill the role you are cast in life, there will always be detractors who try to shift the focus onto more negative things. The true lesson of history is to always have more good deeds in your closet than designer heels.  At the end of life you may only have one shoe left that expresses your personal style; investing in a good reputation may in the end be the better fashion statement.

 

The Working Shoe Girl August 2, 2009

Sometimes in the career world shoe girls end up going toe to toe...its a tight race between these Manolos and Kate Spade heels.  Photo by Jessica Bennett

Sometimes in the career world shoe girls end up going toe to toe...its a tight race between these Manolos and Kate Spade heels. Photo by Jessica Bennett

There is no song that can motivate me to work like Dolly Parton’s “Working 9 to 5”.  Well, maybe not so much work as to buy a new pair of daytime peep-toe stilettos to go with that new Ann Taylor outfit.  Like many in the world, I am not either independently wealthy or dependently wealthy on my parents, so that leaves me with the reality of work.  While Dolly could get out the door with a simple cup of ambition, it takes a little more to motivate me into thinking beyond my mental countdown to the weekend.  It’s not that I don’t like working; it’s just that for most of us only working 9 to 5 seems like a dream.  In today’s troubled economy we all find ourselves putting in the extra hours and picking up additional shifts. By the time I get home to kick off my sling-backs, my toes are tighter than my bottom line.

Growing up I loved to watch all the 80’s movies that encouraged women to become powerful influences in the work world.  From Baby Boom to Working Girl and even Mister Mom, the ladies were climbing the ladder of success and going home to great men.  What girl has not dreamed of having that movie moment of strolling up Madison Avenue in her perfectly tailored suit, conquering the board room, and then walking out to some gorgeous supportive man who hands over a Fendi to carry that big check home in? 

While I would never dream of taking that walk in sneakers like Melanie Griffith did, I would raid the closet of my physically incapacitated well-dressed boss.    However, my role in the work world is much smaller and the only chance I get for a power strut is on the short walk from my car to my office at the shelter.  I am seldom turning the heads of envious women or CEOs, although the clients are kind enough to compliment my shoes.  At the end of the day, my power walk is more of a tired crawl back to the car to slink home. 

It’s hard to consider yourself a mover and shaker when one of your many jobs is as a hostess at a restaurant that caters to vacationers.  Yeah, I move and shake but it’s generally to clear the table and refill the saltshaker.  As I once again direct a lost tourist to the ATM, I wonder exactly when this moment was taught in graduate school.  From way down here, shattering the glass ceiling seems like an unimaginable feat; I would settle for just getting my fingerprints on it.  If only getting dream titles were as easy as it was in the movies or fairytales, the old fashioned girl in me thinks a glass slipper would be just as rewarding at this point and probably require a lot less paperwork. 

While my place in the work world may be almost as small as my shoe size, I can generally be assured that my shoes will be the boss at any meeting.  I am definitely a shoe checker whenever I enter a room and the office is no exception for me.  Whether it is anti-feminist movement or not, I know my shoes make a statement and often times that statement is that I am stepping into the professional world with a three-inch lift. 

While some would consider the workplace an area for being conservative and hiding a person’s true personality, I tend to disagree.  You could say I wear my personality on my feet in a sense.  I never hide my small tattoo on my right foot (mind you, this tattoo is a trio of red, white, and blue stars I got after the 9/11 attacks) while the rest of my tattoos stay discreetly covered in the office.  I also do not hesitate to throw on those fabulous black velvet Rampage heels with the rhinestone buckle.  Just because I may not work for a million dollars does not mean I have to dress like my paycheck! 

Now there might be some who disagree with my approach to office footwear, but think of your own desk and what personal clues are sitting out there for your work world to see?  A family picture on the beach, a comic that makes you laugh, maybe that to-do list for after work.  What do these things say about you?  Maybe more than you think or you really want your co-workers to know.  Seriously, the fact that you have to remind yourself to stop by the store for toilet paper with three exclamation points is not a good sign. 

Frequently, my older co-workers tell me they used to wear shoes like mine when they were younger.  I am still young enough to pull off these tight pinches and heights, and that painful toe operation I endured a couple years ago is a likely indicator of the lengths I will go to keep wearing those fabulous heels.  The truth is I do not mind that my shoes get attention when I walk into a meeting.  A former co-worker once said that my shoes entered a room before I did.  Would it be nice if my brains were noticed first?  Sure.  But I got their attention and in today’s competitive world that is half the battle. 

As I inch out of my twenties, I remind myself daily that I am no longer the youngest girl on the job and someday I may be the older woman in the corner office.  When I become her, I hope that those are Gucci heels under that impressive desk.  As I power strut into my professional future I have to remember that it was my hard work that got me where I am and shoes only help a little. It will be more hard work that takes me to the next level… most likely in four-inch heels.

 

Damaged Soles & Souls July 26, 2009

Every shoe deserves a good home and so does every human.  Photo by Jean Thornton.

Every shoe deserves a good home and so does every human. Photo by Jean Thornton.

My love of shoes is generally one of the first things that I always discuss when talking with friends and those I meet, while my career choice to help the homeless is not always an easy topic to discuss with others.  Both shoes and helping the homeless are true loves and passions of mine, and I refuse to sacrifice either.  They are both topics for articles that I often receive in emails.  The connection between these two article topics may appear to be only that they share my inbox, but I have discovered that often the base of either article comes down to soul… or soles.  

I recently saw an article about the sudden increase in demand for cobblers who can save the lost soles of shoes and heels for their tired, budget-strapped owners who are pounding the pavement all the harder these days.  Across the U.S. many are asking these fading ‘heroes of heels’ to try revive weary shoes for one more chance at life.  Shoes that would have once been tossed into the trash by their high fashion and often frivolous owners in the past are now being asked to carry the load a little farther than before.  Businesswomen and men seek to stretch their Prada shoes another season or two rather than continuously up-grading to this season’s must-have sharp steps. 

At the same time the re-heeled are getting publicity, another form of damaged souls are also in the news.   The recession has hit some harder than just their footwear; it has hit their very being in life.  Tent Cities, once thought long-forgotten remnants of the Great Depression, and are now sprouting in many communities across our struggling country.  Shocking and alarming images of these make-shift villages appear on our television screens to remind those of us still in our comfortable homes that the effects of the recession are worse than cutting back on eating out or shopping.  For some, the “effects” are losing their home, their belongings, and their own self worth.  While the shocking and sad story may fall under different headlines or feature different parts of our country, the images shared in all of them are the same—these are our other damaged souls. 

As a Case Manager at a transitional homeless shelter in Key West, Florida, I am sad to say that while tent cities have found a reappearance in the media, they have been alive and well in our county, but far more hidden from our mainstream views.  I have walked through them.  I have sat with their occupants and shared coffee and conversation with them.  Although I may still go home to my apartment at the end of our talk —my life is anyways changed by what these worn and ragged souls have offered me.   They have offered me a chance put aside the judgments that often prevent us from seeing ourselves in others, especially when those others live a life much different and frightening than ours.   Can we, who have never slept on the streets or called ourselves homeless, truly understand the suffering of those souls?  More challenging yet, can we drop the stereotypes that allow us to separate ‘them’ from ‘us’ and see what could be our reality?

I go back to those damaged shoe soles now getting so much needed TLC in closets around the U.S. and wonder if they are much different than the human souls at the shelters and on the streets.  Both types—whether soles or souls—can hardly expect to survive this world without some form of damage.  Show me the unscratched shoe sole and you will show me one that has never left its box.  Show me a perfect human soul and you will show me a person who has not walked the journey of life.  Either one will surely have been worn or tired from the roads or paths it has been asked to walk; either one will have carried a heavy load of life’s adventures and misfortunes.  So why should one sole deserve repair over another soul?

I encourage you to take a look in your closet at some of those long lost soles you have all but forgotten and thrown away.  Perhaps it is time to think about investing in a second chance for this sole at your local cobbler.  And when you have found the ability to believe that every sole deserves a second chance, perhaps that same thought can be applied to the human souls who could use just as much love and care through our soup lines, food pantries, shelters, and in so many other ways.  I assure you these souls are also just as worthy of another chance at living before being cast aside. 

As I have learned from the many wonderful faces and the stories behind them, it is truly but for the grace of God that this soul goes in soles that take her home.

To help the homeless in your community contact your local soup kitchens, food pantries, and shelters to see what are the areas of most critical need.  Write your representatives about continued support for programs that help those recovering from homelessness.  To learn more about the work of the Florida Keys Outreach Coalition for Homeless go to www.fkoc.org.   

 

Shoe Panic Attacks July 19, 2009

Thanks for the soothing soles of Betsy Johnson!  These amazing heels will relax any freaked out shoe girl! Photo by Jean Thornton.

Thanks for the soothing soles of Betsy Johnson! These amazing heels will relax any freaked out shoe girl! Photo by Jean Thornton.

In a rush to get to a Key West casual work meeting, I am in high alarm as I try to pull together an outfit to fit the occasion while not screaming ‘hussy’.  While an appropriate top and skirt had been found, I am frantic as scan my shoe closet for the third time.  On my cell phone a friend tries to ask me for insight about an upcoming event.  Despite my interest in our conversation, I am lost and stammering over my own thoughts and words.  Finally, I tell her I have to get off because I am having a shoe issue and we will have to pick this up later. 

I throw myself onto the floor and pull out my under bed back-up shoe storage.  With twenty-four additional pairs at my whim I still cannot find the pair that I feel completes my look.  My shoe closet offers one hundred pairs lined on shelves, and all of these pairs are perfectly displayed supposedly to make shoe selection easy.  Yet, my heart is racing as I search for the perfect shoe response to this fashion question…but no answer comes!  As a cold sweat collects on my forehead I bite my lip, I have 110 pairs of shoes so even I can recognize the ridiculousness’ of my dilemma. There is a tingling in my fingers; generally when it comes to shoes my toes do the tingling.

The next thing I know I am laying on the bed; my left foot is in a gold Michael Kors’ pump, my right foot is in a Marc Jacobs’ slide.  In one hand I clutch a wedge while I stare catatonically at the ceiling fan.  It is not until my dog starts to lick my face that I return to reality again.  I am now mere minutes from my meeting time, so I grab a pair of sling back platforms and hit the road.  My choice, while perfectly acceptable, did not make me comfortable with my final decision, and my anxiety remained even after I was complimented on the fabulous heels. 

As I start to relax later that night, I wonder what caused my inability to pick a pair of shoes.  As someone with close to 125 pairs of shoes at my beck-and-call, I should not fall into a full-on shoe panic attack when planning a simple outfit for an everyday event.  It was not that I did not have shoes to complement my style for the night, or that I did not know which shoes would look good.  My shoe panic attack was induced by what causes so many panic attacks of any kind; not a fear of the unknown, but a fear of the known becoming lost. 

Anyone who has studied for an exam only to completely go blank when handed the test understands this sensation.  Suddenly every vocabulary term, every theory, every name goes out of your mind.  You can feel the tears develop in the back of your eyes as the knot in your throat begins to form.  The frustration is knowing that you have the information needed, but being unable to apply what is in your brain.  Everything learned is stranded on a deserted island in that mind. 

And that fear of never getting to the island essentially makes us question: Who will become if we cannot be who know we are?  What if the masterful artist can no longer connect to his canvas, the doctor can no longer diagnosis, and the writer can no longer fill the page?  What if who we are could truly be gone forever?  And in that thought is where our panic is born, the actuality of the situation or not, the fear is real. 

If I am not the Island Shoe Girl, who and what am I?  The challenge is to answer this question not by running screaming into traffic wearing mismatched heels.  The answer is to look at the other parts of my life that perhaps define me in ways unknown to others and me.  Maybe I could be the girl that pairs the perfect handbag to the perfect skirt?  Would being the woman with the incredible costume jewelry be as rewarding for a shoe girl in recovery?

Back to my near-death shoe crisis, I recognize that not trusting myself almost led to my wearing pirate rain boots to a beachside bar.  I have to accept my own judgment before that of others and remember that my shoe style sense has made me the shoe girl I am today.   I cannot allow shoe doubt or shoe shame to destroy who I am.  While my shoe panic attack may not mean I give up my love of shoes for the fear that I will chose the wrong pair, it does remind me that at times I have to roll with the punches of life… 

Wait a minute, roll…roller skates… that would totally go with this outfit!

 

Earthly Remains & Heavenly Shoes July 5, 2009

Like the Egyptian's I want to buried with  treasures and riches... such as these fabulous Michael Kors gold heels.  Photo by Jean Thornton.

Like the Egyptian's I want to buried with treasures and riches... such as these fabulous Michael Kors gold heels. Photo by Jean Thornton.

A recent discussion about cemetery plots has me thinking about my final resting place… well not so much MY final resting place, as I prefer to be cremated and then have my ashes sprinkled across the threshold of several high-end shoe stores.  My concern is more about what will happen to my earthly goods—or  more specifically, my shoes.  I would like to think that the Smithsonian National Museum would be a fitting final shoe closet for my collection—but  if I recall their display of  Dorothy’s Ruby Red Slippers correctly, I am not too assured my shoes will be handled with the care I would want them to receive. 

It may be gruesome to some to think about the end of life, and since I am still in my twenties, it may even seem silly to many.  Yet, if you looked at the height of my shoes and my lack of grace, the phrase “death by high heel fall” may very well appear in my obituary.  If I do not plan now, I could risk leaving my loved ones with tremendous pain and arguments as they determine what to do with my shoes and handbags.  I can imagine my shoes being split up, one sister-in-law getting my Calvin Klein white buckle stilettos and another getting the Michael Kors with mink puffs and gold stacked pumps.  Like siblings being separated in a bad Lifetime movie, this is not the future I want for my shoe family. 

While my condo may contain more than just shoes, I am not nearly as concerned with those items.  My surviving relatives will surely take the things with family sentimentality and history.  Since my dog is absolutely adorable I am sure he will be welcomed into a home without haste… the cat will have a harder time, but she has made her own bad attitude bed to lie in.  Pretty much everything else is of little value since I have always invested in shoes above all else. 

So what do I do with the greatest achievement of my life, a shoe collection well suited for the size seven foot? (Of course there are also a few wild card sizes that I cram my toes into.)  I have a dear friend with an equivalent foot size, but she used to keep her shoes in a large box.   At that time she lived in a smaller home than her current place, I have not gotten the image of heels scrunching leather toes and twisted bows out of my mind.  Plus, she is having children, so who knows what the future of her closet holds. 

My other friends may share a love of shoes but not the dedication I need.  There is a certain way I would want my shoes cared for in my permanent absence.  I need to know that on a Friday night, a great pair of black satin pumps will be paired with a Juicy Couture handbag, and that my funky Betsy Johnson wedges will still be loved enough for an office appearance.  Wherever my shoes make their new home, I want them have the same shoe values I gave them.  Surely, shoes that made my life fuller deserve to have their lives continued in a happy manner after I am gone. 

I fear that without a specified home for my shoes, they may be given to the Salvation Army and sold next to old work boots to complete strangers who are not even screened for the stability of their home, let alone their closet.  Would you let your human kids be treated in this manner?  Sorry, but an orphanage is not an option for my shoes! 

It is clear that I need to talk with my family and an estate lawyer about ensuring my shoes will be taken care of when my time on earth ends.  While to them it may seem an odd request, to me it would be a request honoring my memory and the life I lived.  Question my level of mental stability if you like, but ask yourself this: What will become of your valued mementos after you have passed?   Be it a childhood stuffed animal or your high school football trophy; they represent who we are—or at least how we view ourselves. 

After we are gone a marker may be placed to note our final spot in a cemetery or a plaque may recognize a charitable donation in our memory.  Whatever we choose, our spirit is surely not there; it is with those we leave behind and how they remember us that represent our legacy.  Part of that remembrance may very well be keeping that drooping stuffed animal, high school trophy, or even few hundred pairs of shoes in place of honor.  Regardless, it is my hope that those items will be treated as my memory will be, with a level of respect that I hope I have earned. 

Perhaps, I should resolve to be buried with a double plot so one marker could read, “Stephanie Kaple, Loving Sister, Daughter, Friend—and Fabulous!” and the marker beside could read, “Every damn pair of shoes because she couldn’t trust any of you to love them as she did.”  But then I would have to worry about grave robbers… they went after Abe Lincoln; surely they would go after my shoes.

 

The Truth About Pain June 28, 2009

I got that funny old feeling last weekend; actually, there were two funny old feelings and, in truth, neither of them were really “funny”.  In reality they were more along the lines of pain: one in my foot and the other in a figurative sense when I ran into an ex.  While both caused me discomfort, the first is still cramping my style because I am now sporting a walking cast on a foot normally dedicated to designer names. 

 First things first, why am I lop-sided and hobbling like a wounded runway model?  The direct cause is the broken big toe on my right foot, which actually has agitated the surgical screw from my toe surgery 10 years ago.  (Yes, I actually needed corrective toe surgery to continue my love affair with shoes.)  When and how I broke the toe this time is still a mystery since my feet usually hurt from the daily abuse of stilettos.  Thus, I cannot exactly pinpoint the break, and honestly, I was not all that eager to explore why my surgically enhanced toe was hurting again. 

After two weeks of increasing toe pain, I decided that it might be time for medical attention to determine what the heck was going on.  Waiting until Monday meant another weekend shift as the restaurant ‘hostess with the mostess’ including the most-ess toe pain.   Even with my feet in Michael Kors’ wedge tennis shoes, my attitude was less than charming by the end of my shift.  But I was thrilled to be having dinner and drinks out with some friends, and so I stuck my damaged foot into the cutest Steve Madden open-toe heels and began the night with a little wince here and there.  

Halfway through my second glass of wine, another kind of pain showed up.  If I have said it once, I have said it a hundred times: Dating on an island can create a figurative landmine of exs.  A recent one strolled up to the table, and suddenly excruciating toe pain seemed a preferred feeling over the uncomfortable tension of having to talk to him as if we were old friends who had lost touch.  I have never been so grateful for a well-timed text message as the one I received at that moment!  Of course I would have been grateful for a phone call saying my car was being repossessed if it meant something to distract me from the unfolding awkwardness.

There was no ping of love lost or a funny feeling in my stomach from one last butterfly fluttering.  No, none of that.  There was the pain of me clenching my jaw to keep from yelling, “Do you remember what you did?  Are you so ignorant to think that was okay?”  Thank God for my very pregnant friend who drew the focus onto herself with a perfectly timed rub on her belly and said, “Oh Baby!”  Later, when he had the nerve to send over a glass of wine, she advised me to do three shots when I got home so I would just pass out.  You are going to be the best mom!

I would be lying to say the only thing that kept me awake that night was a throbbing toe.  I wasn’t tossing and turning because I missed him; I was restless because I knew I wasted my time by being hurt by him to begin with and then by thinking he might come to the realization of how thoughtless he had really been. 

Come Monday morning the news at Urgent Care was that I probably should spend more time thinking about good medical care than this summer’s new sandal styles.  I was being sent to a podiatrist—never a good sign for a shoe girl.  With one more day of shoe freedom ahead, every step I took reminded me that going to the doctor was the right decision.  Despite that fact that I now write this with one foot in a Nine West heel and one foot in a Maxtrax walking boot, I know I had to face the situation in order to deal with the pain.  The next six weeks might leave me lop-sided as I try to keep at least one foot in style, but I also know I need to resolve the injury in order to face a brighter shoe future. 

Much like this less-than-shapely boot, I also have to face that “after it’s over” run-in with a grin-and-bear it attitude.  I know any feelings I had for him are in the past (as I hope this boot soon will be) and that dealing with the annoyance and pain of seeing him is just part of getting better.  Any pain generally means damage has been done, but it doesn’t mean the damage cannot be repaired.  A broken toe can leave the foot weak, but if it is allowed to recover, it ends up stronger in the long run.  I think the same thing can be said about a broken heart.  It may ache a little at the time but given the chance to heal, it will be back in working fashion soon enough. 

For now these awesome Betsy Johnson Wedges will have to wait on the sidelines for my toe to heal.  Photo by Jean Thronton

For now these awesome Betsy Johnson Wedges will have to wait on the sidelines for my toe to heal. Photo by Jean Thornton

 

Hitting the Edit Button June 14, 2009

It not easy keeping my thoughts to myself, but these Kate Spade heels are the perfect statement on the beach or at the bar. Photo by Jean Thornton.

It not easy keeping my thoughts to myself, but these Kate Spade heels are the perfect statement on the beach or at the bar. Photo by Jean Thornton.

Just the other day I was locking up my bike at a favorite water front bar.  The bike rack happens to be placed in the sand, and thinking ahead, I had smartly worn a pair of fabulous platform sandals with a five-inch heel.  My toes alone were a good inch off the ground.  As I blissfully skipped to the walkway, a woman passing by with NO SHOES ON cheerfully said, “Great shoes but not good for sand.”  I smiled and walked past her.  I should be applauded because I did not say, “What the hell do you know about shoes, you’re not wearing any, bimbo!” 

Hey, let she with the better shoes cast the first stone at my mental commentary and me.  I am completely serious when I say that it took a great deal of willpower for me to keep my mouth shut with a smile on it instead of stomping on one of her unprotected toes as method of proving why my platforms were not only stunning but also safe and practical as opposed to her bare feet. 

I will be the first to admit that I am not the greatest at thinking before speaking.  Often times I find it best to just immediately interject an apology after saying anything.  Most of my friends know this and understand that my instant and often brutal words are not meant to be hurtful or taken seriously.  It is the rest of the world that has not had a chance to fall in love with my wit and wisdom to such a degree that overlooking my sarcasm is a fair trade off.

Coco Chanel has long been a fashion icon for women everywhere, but she was also known for her witty and dignified ability to advise, be it with a quick and cutting tongue or an elegantly-crafted statement, she provided every female with the advice essential for being a true lady.  Coco’s editing rule still rings true in my ears when I am getting ready for any day whether at the office or out socializing: look in the mirror and remove one accessory.  While some may suggest I edit a few inches off those heels, I insist on holding my ground in stilettos.  Sadly, my mouth may need more editing and a bit of Coco’s grace and restraint. 

I would like to say that my new ability to stop myself before publicly critiquing a complete stranger’s fashion was stopping the mental red carpet show in my mind but it is not.  Already today, I witnessed a woman (out in public) wearing army fatigues (and trust me she was not in the armed forces) in a dark color motif that matched her solid black t-shirt—points for coordinating solids and prints.  Unfortunately she had finished this look with brown hiking boots.  Okay, here is where I am glad I can edit my mouth because first does it really matter to someone wearing fatigues that they are mixing brown and black?  And second, if you are going for the full look, really rock it out with a pair of combat boots.  Hey, you already apparently think that we are mere moments away from all out warfare, why not at least face this battle in corresponding shoes?

Ah, yes, I do not completely have the self-editing tactic down tight, but I am really close to shutting my damn mouth.  Unfortunately, it is not just my desire to spread shoe wisdom to the masses that must remain locked in my mouth.  It is also my thoughts on so many other things that should not leave these lips.  When dealing with tourists I often catch myself having to hold it in.   A lot of tourists that visit our fair island are really great, fun people who are creative and unique individuals.  Unfortunately, I do not get to meet those tourists often; instead I get the ones who find honking the horn on their rented scooter a novelty without compare.  You have never read the headline “Key West Woman Runs Over Tourist- Five Times,” so clearly I am keeping it together. 

 Trust me, world, if you think what comes out my mouth is bad, you can’t even imagine what I keep under the lock and key of my sick little mind.  Six years of studying mental health was probably much cheaper than the lifetime of therapy I would need otherwise to control myself.  Once more I turn to the words of Coco who reminds us “elegance does not consist in putting on a new dress.  It exists in the person who wears it with a level of maturity, class and self-editing which are fashion trends that do not fade with the season.”

Do not get me wrong!  In no way am I saying I am perfect or have mastered the art of editing completely—either in fashion or in speaking.  Trust me; this is an on going lesson of life.  Perfection is not something I can expect in others or myself.  Keeping myself from distributing unsolicited fashion advice is a goal I can hold myself to.  Lest we forget another piece of Coco’s wisdom, “A girl should be two things: classy and fabulous.”   Surely there is nothing classier than being polite and considerate of others’ feelings or at least working towards this aspiration, which may take time. But hey, I already have fabulous under control.

 

THE FASHION OF ECONOMICS May 24, 2009

These great Yellow Aldos are a sound investment, the stock market loses can not chew away these wood heels, but termites could! Photo by Jean Thornton

These great Yellow Aldos are a sound investment, the stock market loses can not chew away these wood heels, but termites could! Photo by Jean Thornton

The economy slows, the stocks tumble, joblessness goes up, and somewhere a CEO yanks, the ripcord on his golden parachute. My long-held belief is that the only thing that is a sure investment is a pair of black patent leather stilettos. I consider Audrey Hepburn and Edith Head my personal investment godmothers. Sure I have a 401k and home values to worry about, but to be brutally honest; it is hard to connect all the dots back to me when those Dow points fall. Yes, I put money in banks and funds, but I just don’t really know where it goes after that. However, if I put the same amount of money in handbags, designer classics, and semi-precious stones, I can see where the money goes…onto me. Reality is I did not get a home loan based on my amazing heels; it was based on my credit score. I will argue that the shoes did not hurt the interest rate.

I would be a fool not to worry about the financial well being of the U.S. and of countries around the world. I view it like this: Long before Ralph Lauren was in every department store, he needed start-up funds. It probably took a fashion forward loan officer who dreamed of classic navy cashmere that drapes perfectly while stuffed in a shoulder-padded gray suit to see his vision. So at last a loan is given, fabric is bought, needles are threaded and runways are walked. All to the delight of glossy magazine readers like me lying on the beach or by a pool on a lazy Sunday. And I, the glossy magazine reader, then wait patiently for those designs to hit the stores and eventually the clearance rack, reaching me via my email shopping alert. Thus I and the good people of Visa can agree on a deal for these items to come to my home. My killer outfit starts long before I strut out the door with people I cannot even name. It is almost like international adoption; how does that baby get here?

I am sure that you are shaking your head at me thinking, “Oh Island Shoe Girl, how naïve! Designers do not need banks; they are brought to our living rooms every week via Project Runway and all get shows in Bryant Park.” Well, yes, this is true for some, but not for all. And need I remind you that it is also TV, just as Katherine Heigl only acts (barely) as a surgeon on screen, she is clearly not one off screen. And I think we can all agree that some of those kids on Project Runway are not real designers in real life.

But I digress. My financial point is this: we need a solid lending system in place to ensure that not only do banks have the ability to provide young creative minds with the ability to buy high-end hand care for silk, but for other things such as houses, cars, and those sorts of things. We could allow our banks to crumble and say, “Look those CEOs got what they deserved!” If that is said, we will be saying it in bland polyester clothing and shoes with sensible rubber soles! Folks, I call that depression whether it’s mental or financial!

How do we get through these challenging economic times? No one likes to hear it, but let’s get it out there on the drafting table: budget, people, and stick with it. Get real about what you really need. Not all things need to be Designer; for example, your grocery store has its very own off the rack the section on the lower shelf. Gas prices too high? Car pool—it’s like a gossiping on your cell phones only you all are in the same car and you save daytime minutes. You should still buy the necessities and you should not deprive yourself. I mean who does not need those new Seven Jeans? But hey! Buy a classic look that will allow you to go retro next season and rock them again.

If we continue to invest in the stock market and continue to buy low, we will all be selling high again someday. Think of it this way: remember back in 1989 when you threw away your Blondie-style wide belts? How many did you buy this year? So hold on to those down stocks, because, just as sure as pencil skirts, they will be back on top soon. And keep investing. Who knows–this year’s stock market failure may be next year’s Oscar De La Renta showstopper.

 

Cold Turkey Mall Withdrawal April 5, 2009

When I lived in Ohio I had all the mall shopping I could desire. Only minutes from my apartment was a mall, a Target, numerous shoe stores and a Barnes and Noble with unending aisle of reading pleasure. Should I long for higher-end shopping, I just zipped up the interstate that delivered me to more malls and more shoe sections filled with delights just waiting for my credit card. One big problem was that the majority of the year, when I exited those malls I exited into the frigid Ohio weather.

Not only was I annoyed at always covering my outfits with bulky winter coats, I was also annoyed at the limitation it placed on my footwear (though for the most part, I ignored this and wore my sandals despite the chill). As much as I tried to embrace any day with a high at or above 55 degrees as warm, it just was not working. I am not sure if it was all the slip & falls on my way to class on icy days. Or maybe it was my constant debate as to whether I should drink the coffee or pour it down my pants to regain some feeling in my frozen limbs. Whatever it was, somewhere along the way I was pushed over the edge… or at least over the many bridges that lead to Key West.

My dream home on the Southernmost Island provides me with plenty of warm days and endless opportunities to show off my painted toes in my vast variety of shoes. But as always, there is a catch 22, and my Key West catch is not a Grouper (yuck, like I would catch a fish!) but the lack of shopping…mainly shoe shopping and malls. Plenty of palms trees and beach towels but not a single mall in sight.

I can tell I am starting to go through mall withdrawal when a JC Penny’s commercial starts to look good. Suddenly, everything reminds of Macy’s—from my Clinque lip-gloss to a starfish that looks suspiciously like that cute red star. My Macy’s card starts whispering through my wallet, “psst… Stephanie! What are you doing? Don’t you want to use me?”

I once believed that only Third World countries did not have a Gap… I have now amended that to Third World countries AND the Florida Keys. Seriously, I am all about uniqueness, but come on, would a rack of khaki Chinos kill us! Old Navy commercials actually start to make me laugh, which may also be a sign of a brain aneurysm. When I think about a J. Crew or heaven forbid an H&M, I get a funny flutter in my stomach and bite my lower lip.

Oh and a shoe section—a real live shoe section! One with tables of shoes nicely displayed in an artistic manner that celebrates their grace and beauty! And there are cushioned chairs with arms where happy sales clerks glide over, carrying arm loads of boxes covered with names like Betsy Johnson, Michael Kors, and Charles David. I am going to stop now before I scream out loud with the frustration of being an island shoe girl stranded (slight exaggeration, I know) on a desolate island (any place without a Steve Madden shoe store is desolate to me!).

Simply typing of this makes me long to gas up my car and start the four hour drive to the mainland and the nearest mall. Yet, during these troubling economic times and accepting the reality that money does not grow on trees or on Visa cards I have no choice but to park my butt on the sofa and detox. Quick somebody block my internet access before I start sneaking online sales from Bluefly!

By noon tomorrow I will be so strung out and craving the feel of shiny bags with cord handles that I am trying to justify a visit to the expensive boutiques down town. I will want to be weighed down with packages and stuff receipts in my purse, to have my trunk filled with new purchases and go through the joy of removing price tags as I hang up a new impractical dress that I will never wear at a Key West casual event (aka your best cut off shorts). With trembling hands I call my Dad to talk me down and bring me back to reality. I need someone who can literally go eleven months without a mall to get me through this.

After the pep talk I feel calm and am almost sure I can make it the next 12 hours with only mild shaking. They say the first 24 are the worst, right? Perhaps I could be more proactive; remove my email from my multiple shopping alerts, throw away the catalogs on the coffee table; maybe I could even start a mall widow’s support group.

Or I could dress really bad while my friend “secretly” tapes me for my nomination to What Not to Wear, and score a $5,000.00 shopping spree in New York City. Get the video camera out; I’ll find those old sweat pants!

 

 
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